These past few weeks have been assignment after assignment, deadline after deadline, and I have been feeling so exhausted and stressed out, complaining and whining to everyone and everything. There was always a lingering feeling of wanting to get everything over and done with, just so that I can stop, relax and read a book, catch a movie or do something else besides whatever assignment I had due.
So today, after a long day of procrastination and grumbling to myself worrying about the stacks of work I had to complete by tomorrow, I picked up one of my favourite books in the world – “When you hear hoofbeats, think of zebra” by Shems Friedlander. I don’t know why I suddenly felt like reading it, neither could I explain why I went through all the trouble of locating the book.
But once I started reading the first chapter, it dawned on me that Allah SWT just wanted to remind me how silly I have been, and how much I have forgotten Him in my actions.
Can I battle my laziness? Must I always give in to my body’s desires? Well, I say, I have this thing to do, but first I’m going to take a little rest. Body, you’re tired. I’ll rest a while, then I’ll do it. Can’t we say, No! First I’ll do it, then I’ll rest awhile. How far can we push ourselves? How can we reach the state of working with joy? A state of no reluctance to perform tasks, whether they be sweeping the floor, washing the dishes, painting a room, or anything that we are called on to do in this life.
If we performed the task and we remember Allah in the process, then we have joy. But usually we do things in order to be rid of them as quickly as possible so that we can go on and do something else that we can be rid of as quickly as possible, and maybe not do at all, or waste more time and energy in finding ways not to do things than it would take us to do them.
Super apt. Now my heart feels much lighter and I’m all geared up to tackle my assignment. May Allah make it easy :)
P/s. Allah, why you so sweet? <3